Oh noes dead blog?
Once again, a long hiatus. It’s good that not many people read this blog you know. This way there isn’t that feeling of obligation to update it regularly.
So what have I been up to? Basically I picked up Sedona Method (www.sedona.com) and have been using it to clean up the inner space. I highly recommend it.
You know, it’s funny how when you begin to be aware, it becomes like you are another being watching this Roy or this body experiencing everything. Like when Roy is angry, I see that Roy is angry. And yes Roy is quite an angry man, especially when he is playing games. Or when Roy is anxious that there is an awareness of that anxiousness.
This watchfulness is always around, just waiting for me to remember it.
And really, I haven’t really meditated a lot or did anything really bombastic to cultivate it. Well, they might help, but it’s as though awakening is inevitable. Like I’m on a travellator.
-Roy
Something New…
Hey guys!
I just bought <Power vs. Force> by David R. Hawkins and so far it’s a damn good read. I’ll update more as I go through it.
I’m in the middle of some new realizations and I’ll share when I can test that it’s really true. Let’s just say it has something to do with monkeys, chickens and bishops. *wink*
Till then, stay light 
Roy
Fake Confidence vs True Confidence
The problem with starting a blog years after I started down this path is that I’ll leave out a lot of the more fundamental stuff that I figured out/realized long ago.
One of them relates to confidence.
For most people, the confidence that they know is a result of knowing or believing that he is better than somebody or something.
I am (or I can finally be) confident because:
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I am richer than him
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I am more handsome than him
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I lay more chicks than him
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More people like me
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I have better results than that ITE guy
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I am better than I was
It is obvious that this type of confidence is conditional and therefore not real. In the absence of the conditions that gave a person his confidence, he will feel diminished. For example, someone who prides himself for his good looks is not going to be confident anymore when he is disfigured by an acid splash.
True confidence is a natural state. It is a result of knowing the falsehood of any of the above conditions.
No conditions can be the real You. Whether a person is or think he is worthy/unworthy, beautiful/ugly or rich/poor, it is ultimately not Him.
In the realization of the True Self, there is True Confidence. They are synonymous.
Hope that makes sense.
Roy
A Great Post by Brent Smith
There’s a Hindu legend that says we were all once gods. But eventually we abused our powers. Brahma, the chief god, decided to punish us by taking away our divinity. Brahma called a meeting of the other chief gods to figure out where to hide our holiness. One god suggested hiding it deep beneath the earth.
“No,” Brahma said, “man will just figure out a way to tunnel miles below the surface.”
Another god suggested hiding our holiness at the bottom of the ocean.
“No,” Brahma responded, “man will just learn how to dive to the seabed.”
A third god came up with the idea of placing our divinity on top of a towering mountain.
“No,” Brahma said, “man will just climb every tall mountain on the planet until he finds it.”
Stumped, the other gods told Brahma they gave up-there didn’t seem to be any place to hide our holiness and keep it out of our reach.
“Wait,” Brahma said with a smile. “I’ve got it. We’ll hide man’s holiness deep within himself-he’ll never think to look for it there.” Since then, we’ve spent ages digging below the earth, diving to the sea floor, and climbing tall mountains, looking for something that’s already within us.
I’ve met a lot of unhappy people in the course of my life and you all have one thing in common…you constantly search outside yourself for happiness. When things get bad you convince yourself that moving to a different city, changing jobs or dating hotter women is the obvious answer. But after making these changes, that familiar restlessness feeling starts again. You’re stunned to learn that wherever you go, whatever you do, whatever you acquire and whomever you’re with aren’t working. Your unhappiness has actually followed you. In reality, there is no place to hide…you’ll have to deal with it right now where you are today. The good news is this means you have the potential to be happy. The bad news is your happiness is your own responsibility. You’re the only one who can allow yourself to be happy. No one and nothing else can do it for you. Not even me or my newsletters.
So instead of rushing to leave this life behind by moving out of town, leave this life behind by dealing with it now and changing what you don’t like about it.
Then, if you decide you want an adventure by moving to a new city you’ll be doing it for the right reasons, have an actual chance of succeeding and you won’t be stalked by your old adversary.
Socializing
Ninety percent of all people’s activities are utterly useless, What you call socializing, talking, meeting people, is almost all rubbish. It is good that it drops, when you become alert it drops.
Rather than talking the whole day, gossiping, you become a person of few words, but these few words will be significant. Now, only real relationships will remain.
A few deep intimate relationships are enough, that are really fulfilling. In fact, people who don’t have intimate relationships usually have many relationships to substitute. You can have one thousand friends that will not make for one real one.
Sadly, that’s what most people ever does. Talk all day about insignificant stuff and have friends like how many children a rat can have in its life time. They think that quantity can be a substitute for quality. It never does.
Kar
HOHOHO Merry Christmas! (and something to note)
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
This is a season where most people use more things than ever to distract themselves from their True Nature. Some examples would be gatherings, going to church(!), and going out to get presents for others. However, few actually give themselves the one present that really matters – going inside.
It has come to a point for me where I know that anything I do before I become enlightened would contain a certain extent of the ego trying to control. That said, I understand that most people aren’t on this path, and that’s perfectly fine. Awakening is inevitable, no one can stay asleep forever. It might take a mightily long time (countless lifetimes) but eventually the True Nature will wake up to see itself.
I guess like Adyashanti pointed out, it requires a strong fidelity to Truth for a person to really awaken. There are so many distractions one can get into at any moment that will deviate him from the Truth. Be it money or girls or fame or whatever. The content does not matter.
But I can see most people don’t have that fidelity to the Truth. In fact, they, or rather their Egos, would rather stay in the world of illusions because that is where they feel safe. This is where they can continue their “me and my story”. And that is fine too. Everything happens for a reason.
I simply await the day where everyone has awakened.
Namaste, Roy, The Awakening OneAdyashanti: The Violence of Spiritual People
Adyashanti is some good shit too… and he’s still alive! Check out his site at http://www.adyashanti.org/
Below is an excerpt from his website. More of a note to myself really.
“Spiritual people can be some of the most violent people you will ever meet. Mostly, they are violent to themselves. They violently try to control their minds, their emotions, and their bodies. They become upset with themselves and beat themselves up for not rising up to the conditioned mind’s idea of what it believes enlightenment to be. No one ever became free through such violence. Why is it that so few people are truly free? Because they try to conform to ideas, concepts, and beliefs in their heads. They try to concentrate their way to heaven. But Freedom is about the natural state, the spontaneous and unselfconscious expression of beingness. If you want to find it, see that the very idea of a someone who is in control is a concept created by the mind. Take one step backward into the unknown.”
Echoing Place
Love should not be demanding. Otherwise it loses its wings. It becomes rooted to the ground. Then it becomes lust. Lust brings misery and suffering. In other words love should not be conditional, you should not expect anything out of it. It is for its own sake, not for any reward or result. If there is some motive in it, then love cannot fly. The motive becomes the boundary.
Unmotivated love has no boundaries. It is pure elation, a fragrance of the heart.
Just because there is no desire for results, that does not mean results do not happen. In fact, it happens a thousandfold. Because whatever we give the world it comes back. If we throw anger, anger comes back. Whatever you sow, you reap. Hate and you will be hated. Love, and you will be loved.
Choose Nature
The thinking up till now is that the individual has to follow what society dictates. He has to fit in. That has become the normal definition of a human being – one who fits with the society. Even when society is insane, you have to fit in and then you are normal.
The problem arises when nature demands one thing and society demands the contrary. when society has its own interests which might not be in tune with the interests of the individual. Society has its own investments and the individual has to be sacrificed.
It should be the other way round. The individual does not exist for society, the society exist for him. Society has no soul. The individual has which is the conscious center.
Whenever you find that society is in conflict with nature, choose nature. Whatever the cost, you’ll never be the loser.
Illumination
Meditation is very simple. Nothing but consciousness. It is not chanting, using the mantra or a rosary. Meditation simply means transforming your unconsciousness into consciousness. Normally, 1/10 of our mind is conscious, 9/10 is unconscious. Only a thin layer has light; otherwise, the whole house is in darkness.
The challenge is therefore to let the small light grow so much that the whole house is flooded by light. When the house is full of light, then life is a miracle. Everything, even the mundane becomes extraordinary and sacred. Ordinary stones look as beautiful as diamonds.
The moment you are illuminated, the whole existence is illuminated. If you are dark, then the whole existence is dark. It all depends on you.
